baby’s first

I sit in silence
alive with nightmares
dreamt last night
the day breaks thin
my bed thick with
your absence
i feel it in every bone
it tears, it pushes me
down in the sheets
the further i fall, deeper
in this madness, your
arms around my midriff
hot on my stomach
in arrays of diamonds
and leaves
searing my skin
marking my heart
claiming my soul
mold my body in gold
your hand plastered to
me lined in silver
kicking covers off
with legs entwined for
lengths to end and meet
a fire burning of
waking eyes to remind me
of your distance