Nauseated

I wish I could vomit out my addiction

day in and day out i am seduced

promises slither along my skin

up my arms and down my spine

they worm their way into my pores

and build a home inside me

i try to squeeze them out with my nails

but my body harbors them like pets

with my false hopes and crusty dreams

covered in dust and bookmarked

i feel so alive when i adopt another lie

it fills me up with faith while simultaneously

staining a red hand print across my cheek

i claw at myself in desperation

I’ll never vomit out my addiction